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How should one be able to do physical exercise, if eating that 'poor'? One has to establish an honest feeling about what is needed for the day. To have a certain routine of physical exercise, helps in digestion and should keep the mind healthy.
I did quit running some years ago, because of the histamine and pollen problematic and the blood circulation (heart defect). My body didn't liked the peaks and the temporary overexertion. I had edema and eczema after running and I somehow ran out of energy afterwards. Running through the woods like a little deer made me high, but somehow it was way too exhausting for my constitution.

Since then, I have been doing yoga every day and occasionally cycle to nearby places.

As mentioned in another article on this site, I consider yoga to be a very intelligent system that consists of a combination of squeezing, stretching, bending and strengthening the body. There are different positions and types of exercises, from gentle to challenging. They can be adapted to the needs and circumstances of the day or life. And for some the practice may also change over the years. Which does not mean, that one is better than the other.

Some thoughts on yoga.
My first acquaintance with yoga asana, was self–initiated at home with a book, when I was in my youth. Because I didn't felt comfortable in my body. No, my parents didn't used that book. The book stranded somehow in our household. Until I read it on the book cover I never heard about the word 'yoga' before. I was always very ashamed about my body physically and carried out the asana hidden. It looked and felt terrible. Despite that, I even put together a 'full workout plan' with asana I might be able to do, if I proceed.
Later on, I went to Hatha-Yoga classes, once attended a Kundalini yoga class and then learned a lot about the body and the physics of asana in Iyengar-Yoga classes. 
I'm working on some Ashtanga yoga series at home now. Just because "I don't know why". I felt the routine keeps me together in those strange times. And I like how they flow.

I have no longer enjoyed going to yoga classes in recent years. Was afraid of being photographed, filmed, exposed on social media, etc. I really don’t like what social media has made with the world.

Anyway, visiting a yoga class, for me just never was meant about exposing my body to the public. I went there, to seek wisdom on how to deal with this ever hurting stupid life and body. From the beginning I was afraid of being watched by the people there. Yet, my inner self never wanted my body to be seen and observed – let alone photographed and exhibited (by laypeople). On the contrary, it hurts me on several levels.

So, still trying to do those miraculous asana, now more or less alone. I usually try to breath myself through the ashtanga yoga series, without sweating. Otherwise I do stop and follow up the next day. Because I don't want to lose more minerals, vitamins, etc. than necessary. My body simply cannot eat more than it already does, to compensate for unnecessary losses. 
I find it interesting, what effect the sequences do have on a sad mind. Since I am a rather introvert, slow and too quiet person, it can easily happen, that I sit down and fall into nothingness. Maybe that's what some people are looking for — but I myself don't like that feeling — I end up being sad instead of in bliss. The set sequences and the activating vinyasas in between, do help to counterpart that a little. My body still hurts, as soon as I stop.
So there is always a next day awaiting me.

Usually, I have to adapt the sequences to my female needs and hormonal fluctuations. It is not (yet) possible for me, to do the whole system every day. That is why I sometimes shorten it, or mix it up. I also cannot physically do all poses (I guess).

I like very much the fact, that in this system a pause during menstruation is made. It had a huge effect on me, sticking to this rule. It is very beautiful to be let alone and be nothing at all. And I think it is very honest feminism, to not lie about the body's needs (of being wrapped in cotton and sheltered as possible from vulnerability). Because menstruating is painful, physically and mentally and I honestly can't even think straight. The brain works totally different as soon as the hormones drop and raise! Body/mind become sometimes occupied and vulnerable or sometimes very strong. Maybe we can do our best to keep our uteruses and breasts healthy when paying attention to such things.

It's interesting, that people did the same thing in ancient times and that it survived. I wonder if this system still works and cures our genetically and socially broken bodies and minds. In any case, I am very thankful for all these asana, which help me find a little relief in this world, where body, mind, soul are constantly in pain. Sadly, I haven't found that much in philosophies and religion.
I'm more into making the knowledge look pretty and accessible.